I've been longing for mornings like this. Quiet and peaceful... just me, my thoughts and a fresh brew. The past few days have been tiring and grueling, both physically and emotionally. Work has been tough. We lost "Monzy", 1 of our triplets the other day, we now have his brother "Ipe" fighting for his life, and "Baste" our little fighter just overcame a major heart surgery and is still being stabilized. If you are reading this, please pray for our babies. Please.
One of the reasons why going to work is a feat as well is because several of our NICU staff are leaving for UK and Abu Dhabi to pursue a career there. It's actually quite sad go to work with some friends/co-workers gone. Its makes me want to leave the Philippines so badly, but I realized that there are some things that can't be rushed. I'm excited tho when that time comes. I feel like I've been settling too much already in my comfort zone and that it's time for a change.
Last musing for the day, I've been "seeing" an old guy friend lately (you know, texting, talking on the phone and getting coffee) I've tried so hard to see anything in him I could like/love but nada. Wala eh. Have you ever had that feeling of trying so hard to feel something, recognize a spark or be just plainly stupidly over the heels for a person but just can't? That's how I'm feeling right now. I just can't see it. I know it's harsh but I just stopped answering his messages/calls. How am I gonna find the right guy if I'm this choosy you may ask? I don't know too. I'm still praying for God to write me my love story. In His right time. So while I wait, message to self: NEVER EVER SETTLE.
There are a lot of things going in my mind these past days and it's so hard to take it all in with my extremely tiring and demanding schedule. Thank you God for this morning tho. I needed this.
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